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Originally Posted by scar12346
So I'm not diagnosed just yet but I'm on my way at it.
The issue is that one of my altars that is now gone for good, couldn't
keep his mouth shut and told a lot of people about it. And I lost
a lot of friends because I thought that I'm faking it. I however
do not feel like I am faking it.. or at least I didn't. I've been
having doubts but Waidth has been such a sweetheart and always made
sure that I know that they are real. That we are real. I will discuss
it with my psychologist. Anyways.. we've been reading a lot about
other people's systems.. and how they are missing some time? Now we
all are missing almost 7 years of our lives but it's because that
none of us are cores.. But time lost has never been an issue to
neither of us. Is it just us? Or maybe we are a very small system
with just three of us going out and one managing everything and
two on the side. Are we just good in managing stuff and team working?
Or is DID not the case for me?
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I'm sorry that you are going through all this...it's just so unfair.
A multiple is a multiple regardless of the diagnostic label I feel. If you ask me, OSDD is just as bad as DID if not worse in some regards...DID/MPD is just the more famous. Besides, depending on where you live, one can be diagnosed one or the other. Anyone having more than one mind in their head is not doing to good in my book.
Alters don't like disappear for good...they just go dormant. They are just quiet sometimes out of spite, dormant for not being needed, or in hiding to keep their memory secret from the conscious collective- doing their job.
When we was younger....we went into voluntary denial to even keep it a secret from us because we wanted to feel normal. FAIL on the normal part, but kept it a secret for 46 years. We just recently came out of denial and feel robbed of a normal life. We are more selective now in who we tell...like professionals only because everyone else thinks we are crazy that we've told (family and friends- everyone instantly became armchair shrinks and started telling me what THEY thought! Lol)....even my partner thinks I'm faking! Lol
We are aware (co-conscious) of our others in a limited fashion...enough to function and appear singular. Our memories though, stay with the other that experiences them which fragments our moments, days, weeks...
We have no core for we all work together to make a person. Some of us just have more experience then others...at least that's how we see it. Everyone has a job to do, so we present to deal with life, even though today it all seems to be falling apart.
In closing,
