i hope everything get better for you
i dont have real friend till now as i usually end up being depressing or weird
as for look i dont care to be honest as long as i like person, most of attractive, handsome guys dont have except their look.
i'm sure you're good man and even have good look

for bullying issue those are the real hopeless people they dont have anything good to do or missing something so they just try to feel better by bothering others

you should continue your education, college important even if its just certification it might help you get in better work you might love. work and education way suck in my country and seem useless and stupid but im trying to finish college then do whatever i want