Alison your reply just actually brought tears to my eyes. You're right, I wouldn't think twice about giving help to anyone who needed it and I shouldn't feel that I'm burdening people but I do. I don't want to, but I can't control that.

Just thank you, so much xxx

You're MORE THAN welcome Evaluna!!!
And it can be natural not to want to feel like you're "burdening" people........after all you know how heavy the weight you're carrying is, and you may feel like you'd be putting that on others, but some of that weight can sometimes ease when you just let out how you're feeling to someone who cares.........
And you know, sometimes one of the really treasured things you can do for friends can be to let them know you do need them, you're willing to trust them enough to share the parts that hurt with them, and if they come through for you letting them know how much you appreciate them.
Sometimes it's the harder times you go through together and share that can make friendships even stronger.
So even if they're not able to say "the right words" (sometimes there aren't any "right words") if any of them are at least able to give you a little comfort/be there for you..........then allow yourself that, you not only deserve it but it may be something they would really want to be doing for you too.
So........ultimately, I wouldn't say you were "burdening them" you're more showing them how much their friendship matters to you.
You've taken a big step, try to be really proud of yourself for that.



Alison