Passionfruit, I am glad that you are okay. I am glad that you are able to talk with your mom about things. Life is difficult for a lot of people. It sounds like you wanted to stay in a crisis home for a while? Is that something your doctor can refer for you? I know there is a shortage of beds for people who are in crisis and many they have to turn away. I hope that you can get inhouse treatment if that is what you want. I hope that you realize all of us here at PC are concerned for our fellow members and greatly care for them. You are a person of value and worth. Please contact someone first before you think of doing anything. We care about you, know that.