I could DEFINITELY see being friends with my therapist.

I have a rather eclectic group of friends and I go to different people for different things. A way of getting my needs met I guess.

When I need to be introspective because I'm down, my sister and friend J are the ones that are there for me the most on that front. They are probably the reason I have been so functional without therapy for as long as I have as of late, but mid life crisis or what, I am feeling especially needy and I'm tired of feeling like I'm dumping on the same people.

My other sis is WILD. I could tell her someone talked me into riding a greased pig naked and after she got done with, "Ummmmm?!? Her next question would be, "So was it good? Should we go do this together?" There's not much my little sis wouldn't do. (Your pants story made me think of farm animals lol.)

I have another friend where I let my weirdness shine. Like poo jokes lol.

Anyway.....

He actually reminds me of J. I know I said something to him this past week and he said, "What would J have said about that?" I told him, "The same thing as you." LOL.

I'm in FL and J is still in NY. Life happens. I don't want to be a burden for her. He is here, paid to listen so I don't feel guilty, and he's insightful. The crazy thing is I haven't paid him yet. It's driving ME buggier than it is him. The first time I brought it up he said not to worry, we'll figure it out. I had to bring it up again because I'm having anxiety about it so he's supposed to have an answer for me next week. All I'm saying is he really seems to care without money being the motivating factor. I'm not driven by money either so that's just one more thing we have in common.

But I'm going to hang onto the "What we have is deeper and more meaningful" perspective here though my transference feelings are making me batshyt crazy!