Omg that's so hard to handle and I'm sorry that you have so much to deal with. Me, myself and I would ban anything wrestling around me, period. They can do it away from the house, their fathers or where ever but not in front of me. Why? Because I don't like it. If anybody wants to know, I'd just tell them something real bad happened to me when I was younger and it makes me scared and ill. That alone should command some respect, you would think. And if they want to know, maybe when they are older they'll be told, maybe.

Boys will be boys, but you are still the adult and have the final say without having to give a reason why.

I act kinda crazy from a normal's point of view I think because I'm so contradictory, never stablish, I mean to me it's obvious and I'm really not happy about it considering the inner struggle that we experience.

So, I told my son about personality changes and I think he's picking up some of the cues. My partner of course thinks I'm faking, but nobody here cares what she thinks.

I'm at a point of forget everyone, this is finally about me. We've spent a lifetime dealing with the needs of everyone else as a way to avoid ourselves....now it's my turn. If they can't respect that, that's not my problem.

Of course, my son just turned 17 and Xbox is his thing, and what I do now is not that big of a concern of his as long as I don't embarrass him, but I offered my mental state as an explanation to explain me...nothing more nothing less.

I don't know if that helps because we would all do something different... and that even goes with those within us that have different ideas on how to handle things, I'm the nicer one at least. I think that even though we have our mental issues, we are still a person that deserves the basic respect that very individual enjoys, and we have to claim it because seldom is it given.

I'm hoping for you to find more peace in your life. I try to arise above the fray...if they want to make fun of me, that reflects on them. Sometimes I think I'm paranoid about things when I'm concerned about my outward behavior or how I'm expressing myself. I just turn it around with a "Haha" to dull the dig.

Good luck