the ohter day I went to say bye I love u to my sister and instead I spaced out for a little while and it was like something clicked and I came out of it. I had written hope you and yours have a happy very merry christmas. There have been other times where I will be having a conversation with someone and say something that is totally out of no where, has nothing to do with anything like talking about how things are going and in the midst of me talking I'd say something like the frog jumped out of his tank today and I don't have a frog or a tank or anything like that. In the past I have chalked it up to being tired and that I need to sleep but this seems to be getting more frequent and what not. It scares me because I'm not myself I guess or feel like I'm not. I space out and not aware of it until someone tells me about it afterward. It scares me because I think well what else am I doing that I don't know about or what am I capable of maybe like cutting myself or taking some pills or something. I think that's kinda how I may have od ed earlier this year; I took a bottle of tylenol not thinking about anything in particular got up when everyone was sleeping and did that. So I dunno I guess I just would really like to know what's going on with me. I tried getting ahold of my pdoc but he's out this week. I called my reg doc and someone was supposed to talk to the pdoc covering. Anyway in conclusioin made a lot of phone calls. Very anxous and nervous but I have an appointment with another pdoc who I was able to get into see; actually it's a previous pdoc I had so atleast I know him and hopefully things will go well. My meds are as follows: lithobid, lisinopril, atenelol, pepcid, seroquel, effexor, trilafon, artane, ortho novum, and most recently added valium (I was experiencing such events prior to taking the valium). My diagnoses are also as follows: borderline personality disorder, schizoaffective disorder bipolar type, chronic trauma syndrome, panic, and features of OCD. Thought the extra info couldnt hurt so I included it. If anyone could shed some light or just show some support it would help immensly. Thanks all.
Danielle