Thanks guys. The reason I brought it up again is because I'm concerned about how I did it again. I do think part of the reason I'm doing it is to feel more connected and close somehow, but maybe I am doing it partly as a test too. And maybe posting about it here and seeing some responses say it wasn't that bad made me feel more okay doing it. I did feel less guilty these other times than I did the first time, but I also feel more worried about my behavior. Her house is out of my way and I didn't just drive by on my way to another place. But I do think I'm only doing this now while she's on vacation, and that once she's back I'll stop. Because when she's back I'll be able to see her and talk to her, plus she might be at home and I wouldn't want to risk having her see me. I guess if I have this urge again, I'll try to do something different like drive by the office or use Google Earth. I still haven't decided whether or not I'll tell her though. I probably won't, but if it continues to bother me I guess it would be good to talk about it and figure out why I do it. Thanks for your input everyone!
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