First off, happy new year to everyone!

I'm in sort of a bind here. My month has been extremely stressful. School was crazy during finals (luckily everything went well and I still have a few days off), but now the problem is therapy. As some of you may know, 2 weeks ago, when I was under stress, I emailed my T saying that I did not have the energy or desire to go to session that week. My T fully understood and let me reschedule the session. So I went last week and told T a bit of what was going on like school stress and stuff but I didn't tell T the truth about why I was feeling so down. My T did notice that I looked stressed and less interactive in session and I just kept saying it was just school stress. So anyways, I didn't have a session this week due to the holidays but I do have one next week. Again I dont want to go because I'm just going to sit there and not be able to tell T the truth and then come home and feel absolutely horrible about myself. So im thinking.. I want to email T and say that I dont want to come in to the session because I have a lot on my mind and I'm just not ready to talk about it yet (this way at least T knows there is something on my end). Is this a good idea? Or is it just a cowards way out?

Thank you !