I don't know what I do when I don't feel like going to therapy, because I always feel like going to therapy. But maybe you could decide based on what would be the most helpful to you. It sounds like it might be hard for you to go because of stress and difficulty telling your T things, but it also sounds like there's some stuff you might want to talk about at some point. Maybe write things down and bring it, or tell her something through voicemail. I've left a voicemail before when it was hard for me to say something in person, and that was really helpful for me. Or maybe do a phone session instead of an in person one. Or just email and cancel the session if you really don't want to talk about things yet. Whatever you choose to do is fine. And if you cancel, it's not the cowards way out, it's just that you don't feel up to going right now, and that's okay.