(((((Aviza)))))

I can relate to a lot of what you've written. I think very similar thoughts.

Of course, we don't know what's going to happen in our futures. Maybe we'll get lucky, get into a great situation, and we'll have more satisfaction with our lives.

Something that I consciously do, every single day, is remind myself to hold onto hope with every bit of strength that I can muster up inside. Don't let go ~ hold onto that hope... keep holding.... things will improve.