i really dont know what to do anymore everything is so confusing i dont know what to think both my psychologist and psychiatrist keep saying i have a lot going on at the moment but wont say what. i am scared i am always wanting to self harm and i am constantly thinking of how i could kill myself and i told my psychiatrist the last time about how i dont think this world is real and how there are demons everywhere and how i cant trust anyone and how the people at the hospital are evil and about the other people in my head and the whispering and how the other people(entities) in my head are magical. he didnt say much but asked a lot of questions and stuff but now i am scared i made a big mistake the others in my say i am not sick and i dont think i am so why should i see a doctor..... but then my psychiatrist says he wants to make another appointment. and then the others in my head say that i cant trust my psychologist and my psychiatrist and that they want to trick me like the people at the hospital so they can hurt me. and i never feel real anymore i dont even feel human i dont think i am human i dont even feel whole or like i am one person it is like there are partial creatures in my body doing things. i dont feel in control and sometimes my head feels all speeded up and other times it feels really slow and i cant think straight most of the time.

i am sorry this is so long i realy dont know what to think are the others in my head right should i not trust/talk to my psychologist and psychiatrist will they hurt me?