Hugs Eden, it does sound like a lot, and it looks like you had a lot of courage to tell your psychiatrist about what is going on. When it comes to trust sometimes it feels like it has to be built up and it could take a bit before you feel like you can trust someone. Most of the time trusting someone doesn't happen over night. I've seen my new therapist since September and I am only just beginning to feel like I can really start trusting her. Other times it is a gut feeling you have instantly. Only I can make the decision to trust someone. They can't decide for me to trust them. I didn't date for a really long time because I always thought every male wanted to hurt me, but that isn't the case, and sometimes it's still hard to believe.