Hello alexandra k, good to see you around again.

Intense and serious, pretty much sounds good to me. Ashamed- is that really something that you need to own? Or was it something that was pushed onto you.

Playful, spontaneous and fun- that's a childhood thing for sure. As a child I wasn't allowed to have fun, maybe the same for you. .........but that can change, I do have fun now although I can come across as being acerbic. YOU are allowed to have fun. I don't know anything about the flirtatious bit though.

Anyway, it does get better. Take care.