Today is a better day so far. I have things to do that bring me out of the house and around people. Also the sun is out so that helps. I apologized to my body for hitting it. My body is reluctantly forgiving. I think, in fact I know I need to get into a gym and burn off the rage that builds. Working out until exhaustion has helped in the past. I am under a lot of financial pleasure at the moment which will pass once I sell my home. I am going to rent. Or maybe buy a mobile home if I can afford it. I do have a job and I do have money coming in. I am just focusing on the negative. I have been trying to not do that but so far I am not doing so well with it. Distraction. The driving force behind oblivion. I think I need more distraction.