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Originally Posted by SoScorpio
But there's also a part of me that is like the punisher. I berate myself, I hate the image of this scared little girl that I believe is me. Because I'm not a little girl anymore, and running away isn't an option. I tell myself I can't afford to fall apart, and when I do, I get so angry at myself. Like a parent might get angry when a child throws a fit, because they know the kid is just being selfish, that whatever is happening doesn't really warrant this kind of reaction.
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There is nothing wrong with falling apart, I would say it is much better than directing frustration about yourself to blaming others. There is so much societal pressure to be like other people and success is measured by money or popularity. I think you need to find the reason why you punish yourself, where do you think you are wrong and then try to think why this is wrong but without putting as a reference what society tells you to do.
I try to judge my actions by what empowers me and other people and what makes me get stuck in a self blaming circle or makes me blame other people.