I paid lawyers twice before to divorce him, and backed down both times. He begs me and pleads how much he loves me and that he'll change, but he won't. For years, the sexual frustration physically hurt and I took care of my own needs when he wasn't around. But that still didn't curb my anger and disappointment from not getting the attention from him. So, it's not just about the physical act, it's about how I feel loved. Plus, he has a very small penis. There I said it! Not that I ever had an O from vaginal intercourse anyway from any other lover. One time I did with another boyfriend. Also, a penis can be too large for me as well and hurt. But, I hardly even feel him in me and we need toys/oral for me to O. Yes, I feel lacking about him physically, but I'd never tell him that.