Hello! I am 41 years old and newly diagnosed with Bipolar II. Before my diagnosis I was struggling with depression and I never saw the "highs" in my past. Now they make sense. I am now in an ambulance for bipolar disorder and next Wednesday we will speak about the next steps and medication (I was on Effexor but now I stopped it cause it can change my mood into mania). They also have group support and education facilities there. And they will help me to find a therapist too. For the time I am a little bit confused and I try to find out as much as I can about the illness and how I can manage it. So I hope to meet much people oho also know the struggle and problems with it. That could help me a lot I think. I am married for almost 15 years and have four adoreable children. I try to be stable for them not for me. For the time I have not much self love I think. I do not trust me cause of the hypomania stats and changing moods and decisions. What is really me and what is the illness? I hope to find answers this year. I wish you all a happy new Year!