Im 17 years old and it may seem like I couldnt have severe loneliness but I do. I have never had friends outside of school so I see people at school bragging about going out to parties and stuff. But recently I met this guy and he swore he wasnt going to use me and I told him I was shy and stuff, well he took me somewhere secluded and he made me do things I now regret but at the time I was so lonely... I have had 4 different psychiatrists including ones in the hospital in which I stayed for 8 months and they have all diagnosed me with depression and anxiety. I have been on so many medications and they havent worked... Im so lonely and its starting to take a toll, my chest hurts a lot of the time when I cry about being lonely. One time I had a very sharp pain in my chest and I thought I was having a heart attack but im only 17.. Im also very suicidal and often imagine killing myself but I dont want to tell my therapist because I dont want to go to the hospital again. I just need help. Im sorry this is very scrambling and such but my grandparents are screaming and I cant think straight..

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