(((((((((((Jacq))))))))))))

I'm sorry you feel so bad. I wish I had words that could help, but all I can say is that I know the feeling - even a tiny bit, and it is so bloody sucks.

I can't give you any advice on ADs since I've never been on them (trying to soon, we'll see) but although they don't solve anything - I have heard that they can make life a little easier. Maybe you can give them another try? As for your T ... is there anyway you can get someone you connect better with? It's hard trying to find someone you click with.

Hang on - reach out. I love you. I care.