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Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2
Has anyone done this? I did when I was younger, but I only suspected then, not too much know like we have today.
Lucky me I guess, very accepting of this condition, but others in this system are straight up freaked out still in disbelief and denial about it.
I do admit though, before the "know", bliss was blessed regardless of what we thought then.
We focused on the outside then, never daring looking inwards. Now it's backwards, we are forced on the inwards more than the outside.
Now we can see who, when, what, how and why. The central image, the system facade that we consciously cultivated and created since birth has been obliterated. We can't hide the truth from ourselves anymore, even though that's what we desire...or can we?
To dismiss all this as a hoax on ourselves as a foothold back to denial to exist in a pretend reality? It doesn't seem so at this point.
If one was to achieve such a feat, they wouldn't be posting in this forum and there by reading this thread. It's just here to express our desire and wish to return to Neverland.  |
no there is no way to ....forget... you are DID after getting the diagnosis...a person can deny it, ignore it but forget it after being diagnosed no. that doesnt mean the problems have to run your life or define who you are, by that I mean you ....have....the disorder, you are not the disorder, just like someone can have a hallucination but they are still a person not hallucination. a person with dissociative disorders can if they choose to just continue on with life like they did before being diagnosed,
example after I got diagnosed nothing changed but my perception (how I perceived my diagnosis, my life, my system and body) getting the diagnosis did not change what has been happening for all my life. even though I had the diagnosis I could still if I choose to not follow my treatment providers, not take care of my problems, continue spacing out and feeling numb, having no control over my life and what was happening in my life outside my body. or I could choose to follow my treatment providers and feel better about my life and everything that comes with being diagnosed, internally everything continued on like normal ...well my normal... where each of the alters had their own jobs, purpose and reasons why they were there and they continued to do their jobs purposes, reasons for being because thats what dissociative type alters do.
I could choose to think and say i dont have DID but saying and thinking that would in my mind be saying rainy didnt exist, rainy wasnt real, thelma doesnt exist thelma isnt real, but my treatment provider explained to me do that and what happens if they are not needed anymore then they will integrate and I will clinically no longer be DID....or...life will go on just like it has for all my life where the alters continue to do their jobs, purposes, reasons for being, just like they did before I was diagnosed. only this time I would know why my boss was giving me a lecture for missing a meeting (because thelma had a date) or why i woke up holding a teddy bear and blanket after a storm (rainy hates storms)
then my treatment provider reminded me...if life was so perfect before getting diagnosed then why beyond the college semester did I stay in treatment, the semester was over I passed the class.
my suggestion is keep following your treatment providers and things will feel better for you soon, if you dont have another treatment provider at the moment try some of the tools you have already learned to help yourself feel better.