i started writing in a journal around age 7 or 8 forward until 2013 (but barely). in 2007, the ability to write kind of just stopped. guess it makes sense since things changed both externally and internally. i used to also be able to write poetry which i think was linked to a part. it was like the poems would just come out of nowhere in perfect pieces, and i would have to write them down really fast before they disappeared. i cannot/could not ever write if i had to actively think about doing it. now, when i try to journal, it just doesn't work. the best i can do is write things on forums/in conversation with people online. i am not sure why. i have wanted to journal again to document things, but when i try, it just will not come out. it's like it gets stuck in between my head and fingertips when i try to journal, like something trying to stop me. it's very frustrating. but i don't know how i can type on forums and stuff since it's technically documenting things as well...

i have found though going back and reading past journals has helped me piece some things together, though hard to read at times.