only when things are quiet/not active or in my face and affecting my functioning, emotions, thoughts, etc. up until a few years ago, there were times i would be given info/know about the others but then it would be taken from me again...probably more as a child too though. it sometimes still happens, so i actually try to keep reminding myself of things...especially incidents that happen where i've felt/heard one of them during a dissociative episode because i feel if i forget it, it might take away information i need to know in order to help myself/them somehow. i don't know. still a lot of guesswork with things.

at one point, i thought i knew so much about them (but not when they developed or why)...and then years later it's like i don't know how it is anymore. while they stayed consistent so i knew kind of who was who when they come around again, other things have changed to make it more confusing...specifically where it seems some do not know who they are if they get too close to me/blend with me..where years ago i used to know them by name.