I find it disturbing because I wouldn't want to self injure and be unaware of it you know? That is my biggest fear. I'm quite worried about seeing the pdoc tomorrow. I really don't want to be admitted if he's just trying to cover his own @ss, u know? I find it weird that these moments or whatever you would like to call them some of them are totally nonexistent; the frog thing I made up to illustrate my point but their have been times for example when I told a friend that I had sex with this guy and this girl went and got some oil. Well, I did have sex with this guy, but there was no one else around; it was just us and I don't fantasize about threesomes or women or anything like that. I know I should tell the pdoc everything but that example is kinda well very personally embarassing. I also was asked by the person who set up the appointment for tomorrow if I had done any drugs and I honestly said I don't know. I don't think she bought it, but I can't say for sure if I did or not. I suspect they'll want to probly do a drug screen; so, I'm glad my family isn't bringing me; it's my case manager.