Hi all, I'm new here and wanted to say a hearty hello to everyone that posts on these forums,

I'm not new to anxiety and depression by any means, I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety disorders when i was 16, when I was misdiagnosed from just being ADHD.
I've recently looked into bi-polar and BPD as I was in the hospital recently for entertaining thoughts of ending my life, I felt hopeless, empty, and all around hated myself. My relationship with people has dwindled and possibly at its lowest point as I see no point of interacting with others as I have little to no energy of my own as it is. It's also the fact i've seen sadness and alot of hurt come through relationships and another person to deal with it is really too much to take at times, yet I crave close friends, I feel stuck sometimes and it makes my anxiety rise that much higher.

I'm at a time in my life where work is sparse and it has gotten me down much lower than normal. Since November I haven't had any means of employment as I moved here beginning of November, As i've heard people say things take time, but in retrospect i feel like my whole life i've been waiting for something to happen and it rarely does. When Ive tried to reach for the stars it seems i fall short everytime.

I guess what I'm looking for is someone who experiences these things on a daily basis and has become skilled at working through them. I'm looking for a group where I can openly air my feelings and have people validate that I am not the only one in this lonely world.

So please, if you have any advice on how you deal with these things, please feel free to reply