Feeling hurt.

CurrenT says she thinks I am on the spectrum. We are going to do testing just for peace of mind.

If testing shows that I have Asbergers or high functioning autism on the spectrum....that means I have always had it.
It means that all my previous T's and PDocs missed it.

I am 60 damn years old. That's a lot of years of "feeling alien," feeling odd, not fitting in, and getting hurt....and not understanding why...
That's a lot of getting in trouble, punished, unable to relate to "friends."
Unable to stay in Nursing School...tried twice...job failures..marriage failures, etc.

It means that PrevT missed it, too. And that hurts.