I became convinced the people I worked with and customers were out to get me. So much so that I snapped one day convinced a customer was attacking me. I thought at the time I was going to die. I still remember that experience through the eyes of fear and being attacked but I the incident has been described to me differently. At the time I was so terrified it would happen again or that the staff wanted to hurt me - both emotionally AND physically - that I quit my job,packed up my belongings and ran 1600km away. I basically spent a year in a cottage in a very isolated situation. I was convinced people were out to get me and 'surfaced' only when I needed groceries and supplies. After about 9 months I realized I couldn't live that way forever and sought help. Since then I have had two additional bouts of the paranoia, but have sought help early on.
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