Every fear I had of a relationship, I just had in my recent marriage which is why I am divorcing and those things are:

No respect, lack of trust, substance\alcohol abuse, being taken by a soul taker, emotional abuse, financial abuse, lied to, cheated on, he disapeared for days,question my own sanity, he loves me, he loves me not thoughts, all which lead to my deep insecurities. I lost myself.

Thanks