I'm sorry you're hurting. I know if/when I leave my current T I will still miss her terribly. I can't even imagine....

People saying both T's are a bit strange or bizarre has me confused... I guess I must have missed those posts where you described your T's. But.... just stay vigilant, and know you need to do what's best for YOU... and if new T isn't a good fit, try to keep your options open. I'm doing that very thing right now. Even though I am currently seeing two T's, I'm doing my research in case the new T isn't working out for me. I want a back up plan.