In a way I almost wish she would talk to me about what's okay in the other direction. I am terrified with every single person of asking for "too much," to the point where I can't even make a phone call sometimes, and even when I desperately need to it's hard to ask for help.

My minister told me I can call her at home/in the evening if I really need someone about 7 years ago and I never have. I sat in the ER completely alone and scared a few months ago and couldn't bring myself to call her even though I desperately needed someone to talk to because it seemed like "too much." I was scared and afraid of being involuntarily admitted. It's hard if you're overly cautious to ask for anything sometimes.