(((Alexandra)))

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Most of my dissociation is about being able to lie perfectly still for hours at a time.

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I so get this. I still can lay in bed wide awake but far away and fantasize just like I did as a chld. It was a coping mechanism then, not terribly helpful now.

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playfulness, flirtatiousness, sponteneity

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Why these characteristics? Are these what you aspire to? I don't think that intense and serious are necessarily bad characeristics. I share them too. The shame is something we can work on in therapy and then, maybe we can add a little bit of love or joy but I think we can try to love ourselves despite not seeing those qualities we think are loveable.

Our inner children may be hiding those other qualities and in time we can integrate them. I'm hopeful too!

Peace.



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