Thankyou so much for the replies. I find it so easy to come online and look for help, I wish I could just as easily find help in reality. I feel that I could be happier and find some normalcy in my life if I did.. But I have some sort of 'ideal image' of my myself that I don't want to break by telling my doctor, my therapist etc..
My husband urges me to seek help, but I don't know where to start

I don't know whether it is bipolar or not either, I just know that all I come across is this when I'm reading trying to self help and figure out what is going on with myself! It seems people here understand me more than anyone else does.
My grandmother struggled with bipolar, so I feel maybe that is what I'm experiencing. The only thing I don't experience is the highs, I feel insanely happy and confident sometimes, but it's rare and short lived.

The thing that struck me a while ago is reading it's common for people with bipolar to struggle with sex addictions. I have struggled with some sort of hyper sexuality for 12 years now and it drains the life out of me, I just want to be able to be normal..

I have been this way for as long as I can remember, I have been close to getting help, but never followed through.

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