Hi Little Jay. I'm sorry you are feeling anxious and doubting/confused. Even if you are no longer depressed, it sounds like you are struggling some in other ways.

You wrote that you've thought about contacting your GP to ask for a referral, but feel you can't. I also sometimes deal with the feeling of not wanting to waste other people's time. I just wanted to say that if you feel asking for a referral might help, go for it. From what you wrote, it doesn't sound silly to me.

I guess I'm of the opinion 'why suffer through if there's a way to make it a bit easier?' By the way, I totally sympathize with not wanting to deal with any of that sort of thing--t appointments and the like--and just be 'normal'/live your life! Maybe an in-between option would be to see if there's someone who would do a sort of consultation with you? A couple sessions, if you wanted, with a targeted focus. Maybe there's other things, too, that you could do to help yourself through, in addition to the excellent things you're already doing (doing what you have to do and following good usual routines).

After going through a difficult period myself, things were kind of weird afterwards for some time. I think going through the experience was itself injurious. I hope things get better for you