UGH! The title says it all.... "My bf resents me."

We've been together for around 7 years ~ minus a few times when we had "broken up". Our last time together has been since 06/15, and we went upstate in July together, having a splendid time together! However, on our trip together, he drank a lot. I quickly began questioning the solidity of our relationship. Whether or not he truly cared, and so forth.

Since that time, things sure have changed!! We have gotten into repeated arguments now, all coming down to resentment towards me for leaving him. Mistrust. I'm f*****, basically. However, I feel very angry ~ enraged really! I haven't done anything wrong, and he treats me like crap, while oohing at other women (which he KNOWS makes me very insecure). WTH is going on?!

I *wish* that this was the end. Because, at least then, I would have some freaking closure to this damn relationship. Instead, it goes on for months as he leaves cruel letters under my apartment door. I feel like a POS. I *know* that I'm far from perfect. I keep trying and trying, yet he keeps breaking through my damn outer walls!

What else can I do?? There are many technicalities that I do not feel comfortable (at all) sharing, which may or may not go against me. These days, I have no idea on what does/doesn't look good for me! I am just really tired of the SOS & I don't want to go through this anymore. How do I get out of this?