Thinking more about it, I really need a purpose in life. I don't really have much going on right now. Just my etsy shop, which I haven't even posted stuff in like a month. I feel stable, but I'm acting like I'm depressed. Is it just a learned habit? Once you experience it for a long time, you still can't get out of your rut? I'm going to make a routine to do things during the day, besides sit in this chair and go out and smoke. I need to get back to my hobbies. Hell, maybe I should start coloring everyday. I do have adult coloring books. I also need to get back to my meditation in the AM. Start cleaning too. Maybe later today I'll work on a schedule.