Hi Moreta,

I have been home from work quite often because of surgeries and recovery, etc. I know what you mean by having a routine. Having a routine is really essential to me. Even when I don't work. Otherwise I end up staying up all night, not eating well, wasting my time and feeling bored and depressed.
Although I think that the depression is something that is more or less always there for me, even when I do work. So I don't know whether it is 'learned'. But I am quite sure that it develops easier when we get out of our routine, having too much time to think.

I think that you mentioned a great idea: starting to get a routine. I hope your T can help you with this. Then maybe you can start looking for a new job and see whether that makes any difference.

Wish you all the best.