True. I think it's just especially hard because I haven't seen her in a year, and we can't just start up where we left off because so much has happened since then, and then, do I wanna sit there and hash out the big stuff from the past year? She already knows about it and helped me through it at the time (well, the initial part at least). For example, I wouldn't have made it through my hospitalization without her, and I wouldn't have found a pdoc able/willing to treat me fast enough without her. Do I really need to go through all that again?