I am 52 years of age and for the past 15 years plus have been experiencing intense feelings of guilt for past actions. The guilt is so overpowering now that I am desperate. When I was somewhat younger I mixed with a similar mind-set type people and messed around with several married women, even though I was also married at the time. I realize how stupid I was/ am but thankfully managed to see the light. I am aware that I caused so much heartache and suffering in the world and am so regretful but also realize that there is nothing I can do. I can only ask anyone else that might even contemplate such actions to not do it. I am at the point now where I am so lost, so hate myself, and a am actually considering removing this "filth" (me in this case) from this world.