Im a rapid cycler and have experienced pyschotic episodes, but they were short lived at no more than a couple weeks. When I say pscychotic, I mean losing all logical thought. The first time I almost committed suicide and was placed in a psyche ward for, if I remember correctly, 14 days. It happened a second time and I put myself in early just in case I was to hurt myself again. If it happens again, I will do the same. My insurance doesn't cover hospitalization in that case which means I will probably owe them as long as I live. At least I'm still here. Hang in there, talk to your pdoc and nip that crazy in the butt. Good luck