So I had my last pdoc visit of the year last week. I have been hypomanic since I last spoke with him. I told him and that he laughed. He said, "what are you doing here then?" I explained the symptoms and he said if I wasn't "high" then I wasn't hypo and that I was "fine." Before this he doubled my Abilify because I had been severely depressed the two months before. Apparently in his eyes I am better, if there is such a thing. I have since come down to what I consider "normal." As I think back on it, it makes me angry because I am obviously cycling in a big enough way that it's troubling.

My pdoc is as brilliant as they come, but I think because I am not absolutely depressed, he doesn't really care. I thought he was someone who was on my side. Am I wrong? Am I just another case to push through the system?