Or does society need to have a different view of psychopaths first? What do you want from other people it's necessary to manipulate to get? I kind of know what it was for my dad but not for somebody like you.


My life has certainly been somewhat miserable because my geekiness didn't fit in well. I had to stuff myself into a shoe box, is how I felt.


I had an interesting session with my therapist a couple of weeks ago. She was trying to explain the concept of relationship “fit” to me because I seem to lack an intuitive understanding of it. She described how she and her husband had met a new neighbor, come back inside and the husband said “She seems nice.” My therapist said that she replied “She and I could never be friends. She seems so fake.”


My therapist knew that I had had trouble with my aunts because they tended to wear a mask of social pleasantness all the time, but what I noticed was that therapist’s first reaction to her husband’s comment was “She and I could never be friends.” Sounded/felt like rejection. I felt appalled, and like recoiling from my therapist. I told her that – we’re doing well, that kind of feeling would have probably been “numbed out” years ago.


Here’s the thing, though. It seems like to “normals”, or some of them anyway, assessing whether or not a new person would click (in your “clique”) is an automatic priority when meeting somebody new. Something in the wiring, maybe? Not the case for me.