thanks velcroo i know my T isnt a bad T at all . she is only going on the information i share with her . this is all she can do . and over the 5 years i have been seeing her this has been very little. i would love to be able to say all this to her but the idea terrifies me . but her saying she knows me is a hard pill to swallow . especially when i do want her to know me better then she does to know what i have had happen to me and why i do and say the things i do and feel the way i do .