Thank you all so much for the replies!! I'm definitely not looking for a diagnosis online, but I definitely appreciate the feedback so I can go into my therapist with something to put forward to her logically and explain my concerns..

I have been reading on borderline personality since reading these comments and wow it's scarily accurate. My problem is more major overreactions to what's going on around me, not so much shifts like that..

I have a decent doctor, I have been with him for 8 years. 1 year ago I had a major breakdown couple of weeks after I had my son. I had seen a picture of my husband with another woman and she was kissing his cheek. I lost it, suicidal, I didn't eat, I couldn't get out of bed it was a horrible time. My doctor sent me to the therapist I'm with now and I'v been with her since.

She told me the same thing as you mentioned ^^ that I had my husband on a pedestal but the realization that he was just human/not perfect had caused me to see him as a villain, which is so spot on. He disgusted me to the point of hate for a long time but in the past year it has improved thankfully.
I also read a little about the dbt therapy? It seems that is what I'm doing with her right now...

I'v wrote a short letter about the way I have been feeling and plan to take it in to her next week at my appointment. I'm so hoping I can find some peace within my mind, I'm so tired of my breakdowns.. It's exhausting.

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