i know i to often share the negative things i feel about my T . but i am a big believer that T are only human . they can only work with what they are given to work with . i give my T nothing but resistance and negativity to work with . i am always respectful of her and i am never mean and or rude . i dont think i have unrealistic expectations of her at all. most of the problem is coming from me . if i was able to talk to her straight and tell her what is going she would have a better idea what is going on . but instead she has a bunch of half information and me to scared to say much . i know at some point im going to have to deal with all this crap in my head . all the memories , anger , flashbacks, and trauma . maybe if i talked to her more she would be more willing to believe how i am feeling