He thinks I have BPD. He knows nearly every holiday and birthday have been ruined by him or my mother. He knows how I feel about that and about the sex problem. I have begged him to just initiate sex with me consistently... Say at least once a week. So what does he do? He doesn't buy any presents for the holidays and says he doesn't want to celebrate on the day of, he plans nothing and let's me wallow in depression on my birthday, and he doesn't initiate sex on New Year's.

I am not an overly demanding person. I ask very little. I am very thrifty and do so much for him. I feel like I am going crazy trying to analyze if I am mentally ill or if I am just having very difficult relationships with people who are very difficult!