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Old Jan 04, 2016, 05:13 PM
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Originally Posted by Willowleaf View Post
Hi, I don't normally post and I'm not sure what I want from you all, but my t said something tonight that really affected me. I had reacted badly to something and was trying to explain. She was great and completely accepting, but then at some point something was said and she said when are you going to wake up and believe me that the level of abuse you experienced was extreme. That it actually can't get much worse, but that still I deny it. She has been trying to get me to realise this for some time but tonight was the first time she put it that strongly. She then backed it up with examples from my life that I don't want to share, but instead of feeling validated I just feel a fraud. I just think part of me wanted her to think this so maybe I will seem a bit special? I don't know I'm feeling very confused. I haven't made anything up I just find it hard to accept that it was this damaging and that actually it really wasn't that bad and I dealt with it fine. Can anyone identify? I feel all over the place and think she must be lying, but then why does she say it. She is a very experienced therapist who I have worked with for years and in whom I have complete trust. I just feel a complete fraud and a mess.
My T and I just had a very similar discussion today so I get it. In my case saying that I was a liar who.made things up was one technique my mom used to keep.me from telling anyone. The result is that even though I am telling what I know to be the truth I still feel like I am making things up.

I don't have any advice for you but I understand
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brillskep, Out There
Thanks for this!
Willowleaf