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Old Jan 04, 2016, 07:22 PM
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Originally Posted by BlueGreenTabbyCat View Post
Your bulimia IS a big deal!

When I started to relapse, I had one episode a month...then it became twice a month, then once or twice a week...before I knew it I was in a mess I couldn't get out of.

No one chooses to be bulimic- it's not a lifestyle choice, it's a problem with mental health and an act of desperation- no one likes being sick, no one wants to be unable to cope or eat "normally", no one invites this. If you are struggling, it is a big deal, it does matter and there is no 'mild' to bulimia no matter how frequent or infrequent, it can easily become worse and it's very difficult to live with. If you are able to stop and just don't want to, you are clearly unwell (wanting to be bulimic is not a happy way to want to live) but if as I suspect, you want to stop but can't, then there really is a problem and you need help, there is no hierarchy with mental health, it all matters.
Thank you BlueGreenTabbyCat...

"There is no hierarchy in Mental health".

...those few words really touched me. I struggle so much with the validity of my feelings and experience of the world. I've always felt guilt for 'the way I am', have never been 'good enough' or, perversely, 'sick enough'. Others pain always seems so much worse than my own and I feel guilty for even daring to think about or feel my own 'suffering'. And conversely, the more guilt I feel the more I suffer.

A vicious cycle I wish I knew how to break...

Phx