I always get mixed. This year has been different than I've ever had before: one continuous cycle. I think I was depressed first then very agitated mixed then meds helped some and more depressed then there were issues with meds and I had to come off some and I was severely depressed for longer than I have ever been with occasional pops into mixed for a few days or a week and now I'm severely mixed and very cranky and emotional. I've cried over everything in the last few weeks (not helped by being sick since the 24th) and been paranoid and angry. Being sick probably kept me from getting more out of control. I hopefully will start to respond to my new med just about one year exactly from when this mess started. Right now I feel like the mixed is becoming more and more labile. I almost started crying trying to make a decision in a store yesterday and again today I couldn't figure out which tea bags i wanted (first I wanted ones that had caffeine so it was good I noticed that) and they were too expensive to get both kinds at that store and it was completely beyond my coping skills.