It is very risky having children when you are bipolar. it takes more planing and maturity then a normal person does.

for example did you know that the medications for bipolar (anti depressants, anti psychotics) cause fetal death\ miscarriage, children born that only live for a few hours because of the birth defects antidepressants\anti psychotics and other psychotropic medications cause.

that is why medications for people with mental health issues and seizure medications, blood thinner and others all say on them do not take if pregnant.

in order for me to have children all my treatment providers had to have permission to have access to all my medical and mental health files. I had to enter the hospital to be taken off ...all... medications, remain in the mental health unit for 3 weeks beyond that to ensure my bipolar was not going to enter any problems like hallucinations, delusions, mania, depression, hypomania....no seizure problems, no numbness, spaciness you name it every aspect of my mental and physical health was assessed while doing a long term cycle in the mental health unit off medications. this was because having a child is a long term affair. you have to be able to go with out medications for at least a year. (the 6-10 weeks it takes all medications to leave the body with no lingering affects and the 9-10 months you have to go with out medication in your body while carrying that child)

After taking me off my medications and being released from the hospital I still could not get pregnant right away. I had to wait a few months with appointments with my treatment providers every week so that they could make sure I was completely stable and able to take care of myself while off medications. after being off medications I had to work with an alternative treatment provider for things like herbals and vitamins.

while pregnant a bipolar person goes through many things that may affect that pregnancy. without bipolar medications to control bipolar related depression, mania, hypo mania, psychosis its very very hard thing to do.

then after the child is born you go back on the medications. that means you have a week to 4 weeks of readjustments to side effects all the while taking care of a new born baby's feeding, diapering and well being.

just a thought here because I remember one of your post saying you were frustrated with your cat because it was urinating on the floor. well guess what babies urinate all over the place, sometimes on the parent, sometimes on the floor through their diapers, and during changing of the diaper. sometimes during potty training the 2 year old will be going to the bathroom in their pants\diapers and now they are big enough to figure out how to take that diaper off theres going to be plenty of bathrooming and not just urine on the floors\carpets. like with your cat you are going to need to be able to handle the messes that come with having babies\children. they are messy when they play, they are messy when they eat drink and sleep. after they learn to talk you are going to have to be able to hold your temper when they talk back\mouth off and say no at you. they are babies and children not adults who know how to clean their own behinds, clean up their own messes off the floor when the floor becomes their bathroom of the moment.

my suggestion is go to your nearest planned parenthood or high school and ask them if they have a parenting program where you work with computerized babies. these are dolls that are computer programmed to act just like a newborn, enfant and toddler. they are very realistic even wake you up at all hours crying and you have to figure out why and take care of that baby 24\7. sometimes you even have to take that doll to a doctor just like you have to with a real live baby for check ups, ear infections, colds, breathing problems,

you may want to also think about getting a couple full time jobs having babies is expensive. my prenatal care was around $2800.00 this included prenatal vitamins and doctor appointments for check ups, did not include the amniocentesis and other tests to monitor my baby's growth and health. the hospital cost for delivering my baby was $2500.00 (because the doctor charges for all the time he was at the hospital monitoring my labor and also actually delivering the children) add on top of that the 1500. for the hospital bed\room for 3 days, add to that the pediatrician (when a baby is born the hospital automatically assigns that baby a doctor to monitor the baby and take care of the baby's health care while mom and baby are in the hospital.) add on top of that the bottles, diapers, machines and nursing care in the nursery the baby is using right after birth for the 3-7 days the mom and baby are in the hospital,

its a federal law that hospitals in the USA can not release the new born baby if the parent doesnt have a car seat to transport the baby. this can colst anywhere between 35-100 bucks depending upon where you get it, (here in the USA we have strict laws of what can be used for car seats. suggestion check out baby car seats like gerber and others.)

after you get the baby home then the real work begins, you are now on your own with this screaming crying warm thing called a baby. fantastic when they are sleeping and looking up at you with bright delightful eyes but man that first 4 months plan on not getting much sleep (tip sleep when the baby sleeps, eat when the baby is eating, dont plan on going out much for parties and wiccan events. or like my wife says our intimacy and night life was tuck the baby in bed and fall asleep during the first 4 months. (6 weeks of no intimacy was doctors orders a woman can not have that due to her physical health after having a baby)

my point is having a baby is something to think about beyond that i want a baby urge that comes naturally to women. its a lot of work, stress and you have to be ready for it so ready that you are not going to get frustrated with messes and stresses that you have posted about in the past.