i always wondered similiar things about being on meds as ive been on them for years now. in the beginning they were forced on me in the 1980s, i would always get in arguments about what these meds were going to do to me in the future. i was walking around calling myself a ginuea pig. its 30 years later and they did do some damage but without them i'm a mess. i also wondered if they never gave them to me in the first place if i would be addicted like i am now.